Meltdown: Free Dictionary Definition:
A severe overheating of a nuclear reactor core, resulting in melting of the core and escape of radiation.
A disastrous situation, failure or collapse.
An emotional breakdown.
Menopause: Collins English Definition:
The period of natural cessation of menstruation, usually occurring between the ages of 45 and 55.
OK. I’ll begin describing my menopausal meltdown, because that’s what it feels like. I’m looking at the definitions above as I’m writing this, and trying to decide which one best fits my circumstances at the moment. Without doubt, it definitely feels like I am constantly overheating in my core to a melting degree, so that nearly every night I wake from a disturbed sleep and feel like the top of my head will blow off like a nuclear reactor. Couldn’t really describe it any other way. I am surely going through some sort of pre-menopause. Firstly, it’s the night sweats. I don’t really have hot flushes as such but the overheating during the night is a regular occurrence. Sometimes I wake with such a start that I jump out of bed and my nightwear feels like I’ve emerged from a swimming pool. I’m now tying up my hair at night because this feels wet too. I may cut it short and be done with it. It is very uncomfortable. Fortunately, I haven’t a partner (erm…), or he would be drenched too, and complaining about my opening the window constantly when it’s minus 22 outside.
The onset of the menopause causes a drop in the levels of oestrogen, so the symptoms of frequent urination and irregular periods are common issues. So, while I know why it’s happening, it is a pain in the neck.
Then there’s the mood swings. Goodness me, they fluctuate all over the place. One minute I feel on top of the world and planning my next holiday, dates with my boyfriend and planning my future. Then, on the other side of the coin, I’m crying myself to sleep, barking at everyone, and feeling sorry for myself.
And the tiredness! I do quite a demanding job, mentally, but I do love it. But when I get home at the end of the day, I could sleep for hours – I’m ready for bed at 9 pm and can fall asleep straight away.
On the plus side, I have a very understanding family and a mother who tells me that it’s all completely normal.
I just think a big long cuddle will do me the world of good.
Items for future purchase: A mini fan, reusable ice cubes, thin night wear, a cuddle companion.
Things to do: Have a short haircut, drink chamomile tea, apparently! get more sleep.
PS: Oh I forgot…the hot flushes have started in public places! New multipurpose stock phrase: “Don’t get the wrong idea, bozo!”